The fear of loosing

Rocky - I am going to miss you. For ever.

Today when you fell, my heart stopped. It was then I realized how important you are in my life. You are now 16+, way old for your age. And even the doctor today said it time for you to leave us and you might leave any time. The fear of loosing you is so strong. I do not know how I am going to take it.

All these years that you have been around I had forgotten how important you are. Among all the other things around me in life I had completely ignored you. But you never let me alone. You were always there for me.

I had all the other things in life to keep me occupied and ignore you but you never changed your stance for me. You were always there listening when I wanted to talk. Ready to lick my tears when I cried. Ready to jump around when I was happy. And I never bothered about you. And after Brandy came into my life, I completely forgot about you. It was as if you never existed.

Today when you fell I realized what I have missed all these years. I wish I could bring back those years. But I know I can’t. I wish I could have loved you unconditionally just the way you loved me. I know that time is lost and can’t be brought back. I only wish I had realized this earlier.

All these years I had forgotten I had named you ROCKY as I thought you were like me. That was my nick name that I gave you. How did I forget that? I just can’t believe it now that I forgot about that.

One thing I know now is I had always loved you but failed to show it. Its only now when I am scared of loosing you that I realize it. I love you Rocky and will always love you.